Amazing

Anyone who's ever read my blogs on here have probably already figured out that I have a boyfriend named Travis who lives all the way over in the US. Well, lately I've been rather... stressed out, and most probably a royal pain in the backside to him with all my worrying and stressing and whatnot. I'm venturing out into the big world of employment, and I've been to one interview and have a screening with another company tomorrow.. and in my head, I'm building this up to be something insanely massive and all it does, is it causes me to lose sleep over it at night and being continously worried and stressed. And my poor darling, he has to listen to me worrying and crying and generally being a pain. Only last night, he was telling me that "I know these words on the pc doesn't help, I know they don't... if I was there, I know I could change you instantly and wipe away your sadness." Which (naturally) made me cry again..! lol Basically, I was on a roll with the whole crying, so I'd probably have cried no matter what he said..! :o) And last night, when he was so kind and supportive toward me, it was then I realised something I've known for a long time... he is the man I'm supposed to spend the rest of my life with. :o) And what do you know, he feels the same way about me in return! :o) So guess who's happy?? lol ;o)

Sometimes it hurts...

You know that feeling you get when you miss someone terribly..? Like you want to just lay in your bed, clutching a teddy bear and cry until you're all out of tears...? If you know how that feels, then you know how I feel.. only to me, it feels way worse. :o) My beautiful boyfriend lives in the US, and his mobile was recently turned off... which is fair enough, less bills to pay for his sake. But the thing is, the very same day my computer at home got a major virus attack and is now out of function... so I can't even talk to him on Messenger..! I live for those hours each night when I get to talk to him.. and now they're gone. I have such withdrawals you've no idea! :o) I miss him sooo much, and all I want is to be with him.. I go to sleep each night, imagining him beside me; kissing my forehead and stroking my cheek, whispering that I have sweet dreams and he'll miss me when he's sleeping... and that usually just makes me cry, so I fall asleep with tears on my face, whispering his name.. I don't know what to do, I miss him so much it hurts inside, and I've no idea when my computer is gonna be back.
Hands up the ones that have understood that I now utterly hate computer viruses?? hehehe Yeah, that's right.. clever readers. ;o)

I'm sat at work right now, but I've no desire whatsoever to work... I'm currently in customer service, and today I am not in the mood to be cheerful and help people.. I just want to go home, arrange myself in the sofa and sleep for 40 days. In 40 days, he's coming to see me... and I wish there was no January at all, just so that February would get here quicker! I'm probably gonna cry when I go to pick him up at the airport... lol I know, I know.. am an emotionally unstable mess..! :o) But I've a cold, a slight fever and the man I love more than anything in this world is far away and my computer is dead... can ya blame me for being emotionally unstable? ;o) lol